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31 mayo Adventure with JesusWhew! The last 4 weeks has been a challenging time for moi. Been feeling S-T-R-E-T-C-H-E-D like a rubber band physically, mentally, emotionally - with assignments & presentations, organising World Impact, NG events and several other different things. But even so, God's grace has truly been amazing in sustaining me! And I see the hand of God move in all the situations! Indeed He supplies whatever I lack. Praise God!
In our spiritual journey, at times we may come to some mountains or rugged terrain which challenges & stretches us to our limits. But instead of giving up or giving into such situations, it is an opportunity to venture further in trusting and relying on God. I have learnt much from times like these, that they are actually great opportunities to grow more in relying on His grace. In fact, I now get excited about such times becos I know that they are opportunities for God's glory to shine!! And for me to grow deeper in my relationship with Him, stronger in my character, deeper in knowing His grace, more convicted of His Word and more passionate in fasting & prayer. This promise holds so true:
2 Cor 9:8 (NIV) 8And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work. That's why I still have much joy in my heart! I do forsee the "stretching" will continue on for another 3-4 weeks (with more assignments, presentations, preaching, organising etc). But that's cool!  .... it's an exciting Adventure with Jesus!  Can't wait to see what God will do!!!17 mayo Complete - Parachute BandHere I am, Oh God I bring this sacrifice--my open heart. I offer up my life. I look to You, Lord Your love that never ends Restores me again So I lift my eyes to you, Lord In Your strength will I break through, Lord Touch me now, let your love fall down on me I know your love dispels all my fears Through the storm I will hold on Lord And by faith, I will walk on, Lord Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day, And I will be complete in You I look to You, Lord Your love that never ends Restores me again So I lift my eyes to you Lord In your strength will I break through Lord Touch me now, let your love fall down on me I know your love dispels all my fears. Through the storm I will hold on Lord And by faith I will walk on, Lord Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day And I will be complete in I will be complete in I will be complete in You 16 mayo Souls are precious to GodWhere I am now: International Christian College
The Time now is: Afternoon breaktime
What I am doing now: I'm supposed to be doing my assignments (due today!) but hmm....
 Today's lecture on comparative religion is about Hinduism. Even though I've grown up in S'pore & been exposed to Hindus around me, I never really know what they believe. Their faith is very interesting indeed. At one point of the lecture, Auntie Lee was sharing about the devotion of the Hindus to their gods (carrying the kavardi during Thaipusam, one lady used her very long hair to wipe the ground after every 2nd step during a Thaipusam procession, various dharma (religious duties) they would constantly perform), their desperation to get released (Moksha) from the cycle of reincarnation, their desperation to find the Reality/Truth (Brahman), the bondage of the caste system etc. Suddenly there was a such a stirring in my heart - a cry to see them realise that such devotions will not bring the peace and salvation they are so desperately searching for, but salvation is only found in Jesus Christ! I remember vividly of the days when I was desperate in seeking and trying so hard on my own efforts to find the Truth. I remember being frustrated and confused because I keep failing by my own efforts. Until I found Christ, that through Jesus, all my sins, my wrongdoings are forgiven completely. God confirmed to me that I cannot, will never ever attain heaven by my own wisdom and efforts because I am a sinner. The only way to God is through the Way He provides for us - His One & Only Son, Jesus Christ. That is and has to be the only way - I am truly convicted of this. How can an imperfect man with imperfect efforts attain perfection (heaven)? He/she has already failed from the very beginning when he/she is born. The only way to perfection is by a perfect "effort" which God provided His Son Jesus, who lived a sinless (perfect) life on earth and became the perfect sacrifice for the sins of the world. (Hmm...am I confusing some of you yet?)
Also, I realised how much I have reduced in the burden & desperation in sharing the Gospel. I do attempt to do so in a few occasions, but I realise that at times I've grown complacent and phlegmatic about evangelism. It is so easy to become complacent in daily life - people I work with, people that I walk past along the streets - they become just people around me. I need to once again stir up the passion, the burden, the desperation and the compassion for the lost!
On a lighter note...
I was chatting with one of my classmates about African culture (he is an African with an amazing salvation testimony). Found out a few interesting things:
As I was listening to him, I was reminded how important it is for church planters, missionaries, or even those who go on short term mission trips, to be so familiar with the culture of the land. If not, we can easily offend the people and become a hinderance to the Gospel rather than advancing it. 12 mayo How is my brain wired?Did a quiz/test on how my BRAIN is WIRED - masculine or feminine. (Brain Wiring Quiz) This is based on the book - "Why women can't read maps and why men don't listen." Quite fun actually...though I'm not too surprised by the results, considering now how my housemates keep teasing me on how I cannot multi-task! Sigh... and I remembered I used to be able to do so when I was younger - roller skate, eat ice-cream and listen to walkman...and not get knocked down by cars
Anyway, between 0-300, I scored 65! And here is the result:Masculine Brain
You demonstrate moderate logical, analytical and verbal skills. You will tend to be disciplined and organised in many areas of your life. You are likely to be good at projecting costs and planning outcomes, being only slightly influenced by emotional considerations. 07 mayo Cracking Macadamia Nuts & More...Tonight my housemate and her friends brought some solid, unopened macadamia nuts home. We had hilarious fun trying to crack the nuts with a hammer and spanner. The shell is really not easy to break! It took a lot of strength, eye-hand coordination and perseverance to get the yummy, tasty contents.
 too much hard work for a small little reward. think it took us 10x as much time and effort to break the shell than to eat it! But anyhow, it was worth the fun! Well, least now I can add "cracking macadamia nuts with a hammer" to my 600-700 skills ! (Beng preached today that an average person has 600-700 skills.) Check out the photos below. Well, that aside... God spoke to me during the sermon - "God does not call the qualified but He qualifies the call." This quote really rang in my heart about how God is looking firstly for those who are available not ability - and to those who are willing to make themselves available to His call, He will give the ability (Moses in Exo 4). It challenged my heart once again about allowing my whole life (my heart, my self) to be available to God, and to allow Him to use me in whatever ways He deems fit to His grand purpose. Even during Bible College, thro my lecturer, God revealed to me that the greatest sacrifice of Jesus is in completely submitting His will to the Father - EVERYTHING He did was what the Father told Him to do. He did nothing out of His own will or accord, even though He is God.
(Joh 8:28-29 NIV) So Jesus said, "...I do nothing on my own but speak just what the Father has taught me. (29) The one who sent me is with me; he has not left me alone, for I always do what pleases him."
Jesus fully laid aside His divine powers, relied fully on the Father, and completely obedient to Him. Even so, we are called to deny ourselves and to take up our cross; to die to ourselves so that we will live for Him - who saved us for an eternal inheritance. Am I willing to utterly and completely lay aside myself - my desires, my wants, my ambitions, my comforts and my will - for the One who has given His all to save me and given me a new lease of life? As my lecturer says "Drop Dead" - so that Christ will live in me. Wow, what a tremendous call! But that's really about following the example of Christ, isn't it? And as I am willing to do so - less of me - more of Christ will be glorified! That is it - it's all for the Glory of God!! As I examine my heart, I find so many areas that I struggle to let go. But I thank God for His grace and His work in my life. This year I decided to simplify my New Year Resolution. Usually I will have 5 or more areas, but this year, after praying, just 2 - Intimacy and Obedience. I seek to know Him more, to love Him more and to obey Him more.
26 abril Advancing leaders!Just had an awesome leaders advance 2 days ago. God is really sooooo good. What God does never ceases to amaze me! U know it's so strange - even tho I already know that God is good and He is SO amazing & awesome, I never get "used to" knowing this - which is good! Cos I don't want to get "used to" it - and fall into complacency! I want to know Him deeper & more & more! There is so much of God that we can never fully know Him in our lifetime - even if we have 24/7 Quiet Time. Just one glimpse of Him is enough to wow us for a whole lifetime! That's our God!
I was so tremendously blessed & renewed during the leaders advance.
Praise & Worship
Utterly awesome to just worship and worship the God of all creation! Sensed a strong presence of God. The 30min of P&W felt like it cld go on forever - hmm...that's probably what it's like in heaven when we worship God 24/7!
Teaching
Life-transforming & Heart-convicting. I felt so privileged & blessed to be under the teaching of such great leaders - Ps Wilson, Ps Lance & Ps Wenan. Really caught a bigger & clearer vision of God's plan for His church fr Ps Wilson. & I gained so much fr his wisdom & insights. Ps Lance always preaches an uncomprimising message - to lift the bar higher & higher - in such a way that inspires us to truly live FULLY (and I mean FULLY) for the Kingdom of God - no half-heartedness, no compromise. & Ps Wenan always bring inspiration & practicality to the vision. Thank you pastors! And thank you God!
14 abril Melbourne Oceania Convention 2007Last week had truly been such an amazing week. I was in Phillip Island, Melbourne at our annual Oceania Convention over the Easter weekend. The theme for this year was "The Message - A Prophetic Church". There was soooo much that happened that I wld take pages to write it all down.
Let's start with my "pet project" - Missions Night. It was quite fun
. Cld really sense the strong presence of God throughout the Sunday night, and the responsiveness of the hearts of the people. The message that Ps Mark preached truly inspired us all. Some feed-backed saying that they really felt the whole night ran smoothly. hahaha...But that was not the case in backstage. We had actually ran overtime and had to shut down all PA by 10:30pm that night. At the very last minute (literally), Eleanor (the program coordinator) & myself had to frantically re-adjust things and work things out. At one point, the hall was so crowded during the altar call, that I had to SMS Eleanor even though we were 10m apart cos I cld not move - thot that was quite funny.  But anyhow, somehow things worked out. Praise God and Thank God! Just wanna thank Eleanor for being so patient; and also appreciate the wonderful team - Sarah, Leslie, Doyin, Amy, Lead Tao & Jenny for helping out with such joy and staying up late. I was also very encouraged by the presbytery, especially for Ps Wilson & Lai Ling. Indeed God spoke so directly and so precisely through the prophets into where they & the church is at. I was extremely encouraged when God confirmed that we will see the miraculous, signs & wonders happen cos this was something that we have been praying for and seeking God for. And it showed that God had heard our prayers, and He is answering our prayers.
There were many incidences where I sensed God is speaking to me or to our church, and God confirmed that what I sensed was indeed from God, and not just a desire within my heart. In fact, I realised that it was the Holy Spirit who has been placing those desires in my heart in the first place, not me. I'm constantly wow'd by Him - that He wld use me or even reveal His wonderful plans & thots to me. Even tho' I have been hearing the voice of God, it is still a thing that amazes me every time. & even more so in recent days, God has been revealing to me of how great, how incomprehensible, how high, how majestic, how un-containable and how infinite He is. And yet this great God lives in me, cares for me in every detail and reveals Himself to me. One of the things I had learnt in Bible College is that God is self-revealing - man cannot know Him unless He reveals Himself; & man can only know Him to the extent that He reveals Himself. I've been reading through the book of Isaiah for QT, and have been touched by how much our great and mighty God loves and cares for us, mere humans but His creation. I've previously struggled with understanding the book of Isaiah. But this time, God had been revealing Himself to me.
12 febrero More of God's Spirit & PowerJust had a leaders getaway over the weekend. It was truly awesome! I was greatly refreshed from the fellowship with both God and fellow commrades.
God spoke to me of Acts 2 when Jesus' disciples gathered in the upper room to pray and seek God. On the Day of Pentecost, as they obeyed Jesus' command in staying in Jerusalem and prayed fervently, the Spirit of God came upon them in such a supernatural and powerful way that everything around them shook and they spoke in tongues. God stirred in my spirit to really spend more time in fasting, praying and intercession. To seek Him with great fervency and hunger. I admit I have not spent as much time as I wanted in prayer like this. And yet I sense a deep stirring of the tugging of God's spirit in wanting to draw me closer to Him. And I also believe that there is something powerfully supernatural that God is wanting to pour forth in my life and in my church. I do not know exactly what does God have in store. But one thing I know - it is AWESOME! 30 diciembre What is my hunger satisfied with?Walking through S'pore's largest mall - Vivocity and flipping thro' the newspapers, I am reminded that S'pore is not only a food paradise but a shopping heaven. There are so many cool, interesting and fashionable material things around. Most girls have a soft spot for clothes and shoes but I have a soft spot for gadgets
 . As I was meditating on God and His Word today, I thank God for bringing me to Australia - maybe He knew that if I stayed on in S'pore, I wld have fallen terribly into the sin of covetousness and materialism. John Bevere quoted Prov27:7 in his book "Drawing Near" that "A satisfied soul loathes the honeycomb." And how true that is. When our hunger have been satisfied by the things of this world, we will lose the hunger and desire for God. It is like eating buffet, when my stomach is already stuffed with food, just one look at even my favourite food wld seem revolting. Why? Becos my stomach is already full and satistified. And it's the same spiritually. Thus we must protect our hunger, and not allow unhealthy and even junk "food" to satisfy our hungry souls. But instead be FIRST satisfied by God Himself - fellowship in His Presence, soak in His Spirit, feed upon His Word. And in fact when we satisfy our souls with God first, everything else will not be as appealing anymore.
Dear Lord, protect my hunger from the "junk food" of this world. But instead may my soul be satisfied by You first and always!
Ps 84:10 Better is one day in your courts
than a thousand elsewhere;
I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God
than dwell in the tents of the wicked.
28 diciembre Back in S'pore :) BUT sick with stomach bug :(I always look forward to this annual occasion - going back to my birthplace and growing up place - Singapore - and of course enjoying the 3F's - Family, Food and Friends. The first 2 days were great - gorging through all the yummy food here. Singapore is such a food galore and there is such a myriad of food that I even had to "struggle" to decide what would be my first dish to enjoy upon landing in S'pore. I finally settled on laksa....which I had no regrets...yummy!!
I was enjoying my 2nd day of food haven when suddenly......TRAGEDY struck *Boiinng*
 I encountered the dreaded gastroenteritis (in simpler terms, that's stomach flu). The next few days were days of utter agony - vomitting, fever, diahorrea (excuse me) and body aches. My diet had to be reduced to a few mouthfuls of porridge, ovaltine, cereal and panadol - whatever that I could keep down. Sigh....I lost 3 days the ability to eat luxurious food!! Oh well, I still thank God, and thank the prayers of my mum and friend - at least it's 3 days and not the whole holiday. Today is Day 3 and moi's much better. Apart from a speedy recovery, I'm also thankful for God's protection that it wasn't anything worse (in the midst of the just-bearable bone aches, "shingles" and other diseases were racing through my mind...sigh, that's what happens when u r in the medical field). And I'm also thankful that even during the painful times, the pain has always been just-bearable, never unbearable, and I somehow had a sense of peace within me, knowing that my Father in heaven knows what I'm going through and He is always with me.
1Co 10:13 No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.Truly there is nothing that we go through that God isn't there. And the amazing thing is the heart of God is always towards us - whether we are happy or sad, joyful or in despair, rejoicing or in pain - He loves us just so much.
20 diciembre Beginnings...A-Mayz Moments...what does this mean?
It may mean "Amaze Moments" - moments of amazement of God's character and works.
It may also mean "A May's Moments" - excerpts from the life of a person called 'May'.
It is good to take time aside from the busyness of life to worship the Creator; to contemplate Who my Creator is and What He has done; and to enjoy the journey of life itself. |
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